I promise you all, Shawn Andrews will never play another down in the NFL. He can't even jog without tweaking his back nowadays (not a joke, he re-injured his back jogging on the first day of training camp). His longterm health is at risk and he has serious motivation and mental issues, the guy isn't right in the head anymore. He let criticism get to him and he is seriously weird now.
“There’s some good and bad in there,” Andrews, 26, said of himself. “If you know the song ‘Tears of a Clown,’ that would kind of describe my past a little bit up to now.”
Andrews weighed 230 pounds by age 12 and said he had wrestled with his self-image for years, having been picked on because of his size and because he grew up poor in Camden, Ark. He said he received word before his rookie season in 2004 that a childhood friend was planning to have him killed over money.
Perhaps most revealingly, Andrews said he believed that, to some extent, he was forced into football as a sixth grader because he was big, not because he particularly loved the sport. He said he had not watched a complete professional football game unless he was playing in it.
“I was feeling great, I was like, this thing is over,” Andrews said. “Man, things went south. I’ve never been a big fan of medication, but at this point it’s very crucial for me.”
“All the physical anguish I’ve been through, the thought of not being able to get up and play with my son, that really keeps my mind going every day,” Andrews said. He sees some of his teammates dropping items and struggling to bend and pick them up. “I don’t want to live like that,” Andrews said.